For the record, I have had a life-long struggle with food. It started when I was in 3rd grade and my parents let me come home from school every day instead of going to my baby-sitter’s house. This meant that I could eat whatever I wanted until they came home! Woo hoo! So what did I eat? Bologna! Go ahead. Judge away. To this day I can never eat it again.
This little habit led me to gain a bunch of weight, fast. To boot, I was growing like a weed and the tallest kid in my class. I wasn’t brought up learning proper nutrition, so I was eating all the wrong foods. My parents (god bless ’em) were so busy with their careers and 3 children that we ate what was fastest and cheapest. Lots of processed food, salty snacks, and sugar-filled desserts. Delicious, but treacherous. (I don’t blame my parents, btw. They did the best they could with what they had and it was the 80’s/90’s)
So by the time I was 11 years old I was 150lbs and 5’4″. I decided it was time to lose weight after someone taunted me with the hold phrase “fatty fatty 2 x 4, can’t get through the living room door”. I still want to murder that skinny, scrawny little good-for-nothin. I was able to keep a very tight reign on my diet for several years- until I got into pot in college. During that time, I also discovered running. I used to run after school whenever I didn’t have another obligation. I was never a jock because I was a theatre and band nerd and those took up basically all of my extra-curricular time.
Then I got to college and discovered weed, alcohol, and cheap foods. None of it was good. I still tried to take care of myself and would be good for a few months, keeping up with my nutrition and exercise, but then I would back-track to eating ice cream and pizza and drinking a liter of vodka a night. This went on for about 10 years. Even after I got sober, I struggled daily with food. I am a binge-eater to this day, although I have tools now that I never had before- more on that later.
So fast forward to about this time last year. That ex-boyfriend I told you guys about taught me how to maintain a healthy, balanced diet. I have been drinking Herbalife shakes since last March. I have them every morning and most times post-workout. (If you want more info on that, please comment or something. Not sure how this blog thing works….)
Here is the ground-breaking news. He told me to eat every 2-3 hours. Breakfast, snack, Lunch, snack, Dinner, snack. This was a glorious revelation. I LOVE TO EAT! So now I could do it more than ever! And the most important thing about this is that the food and meals should be really high in protein, and low in carbohydrates. I was able to slowly cut out the refined sugars and processed foods and create much healthier options that I could make in bulk to supply me for the week.
Sample day for me was:
Breakfast: Herbalife shake and tea
Snack: Carrots with peanut butter (Trader Joe’s unsalted natural) OR Think Thin bar
Lunch: Chicken breast (3-5 oz) usually mixed in a salad.
Snack: 3 0z Tofu with string cheese
Dinner: 4 oz pork chop with cauliflower puree and green beans
Snack: 1 apple with peanut butter OR no snack
I usually fall off at dinner time. Dinner is hard for me for a number of reasons. First, I sometimes do not have my afternoon snack, or I exercise after my snack and don’t properly prepare with a shake and/or handful of nuts to supplement. The biggest reason I would ever fall short is due to LACK OF PLANNING. If I am prepared and have a plan I will follow through. If I try to “wing it”, I will fail. This is like so many other things in life as well.
Take yesterday, for instance. I planned really well when I went to work. I had my usual shake and tea. Then my think thin bar. Then I had a pita wrap for lunch because I had forgotten to get chicken so couldn’t have my chicken salad that I was planning. Afternoon snack was… I don’t think I had one. Then for dinner I went to Ralph’s to get one of their roasted chickens and I ended up buying Kraft Macaroni and Cheese. As I put it in my basket I thought to myself “this is for later. Or maybe I will make it tonight and save the rest for later.” I secretly knew that if I made this box I would eat the whole goddamn thing.
And so I made the box of mac and cheese, cut up some chicken, and made a salad. At first I only put about 3/4 of a cup of the mac and cheese on my plate (which is still larger than the recommended serving size). I ate my dinner and it was delightful. Not too full, totally satiated. But then what did I do? I went back in the kitchen and loaded up the rest of my plate with ALL the remaining mac and cheese. And I ate it. And I was stuffed.
So what happened? I KNEW I would do this. So what can I do in the future? Not put myself in that risky situation. Put the damn box back and chose a healthier option. It is all about choices. I always have the choice of what to put in my body. I can let my mind talk me into just about anything, and here is where an accountability partner comes in handy. Just like in my sobriety program, I need to utilize the tools I have. Pick up the phone and call a friend. Call myself out on my bullshit! It is the easiest and hardest thing to do.
I actually do utilize my Herbalife coach, and she is amazing! I do 5-day challenges where there are a bunch of us who take pictures of everything we eat, update each other on our water consumption, and workouts. I am actually going to do another 5-day challenge next week because I am really sucking at my nutrition program lately.
Today I just started learning about macros and will let you all know what I find out and how it works for me! I have started tracking them in my little journal book, and I hope I can keep up the habit for the next few weeks till race time! By then it will have become a habit so I will just continue to track without even thinking about it!
Thanks everyone, for coming back and reading my silly words. I will see you next time when I move on to my OCR sidetrack 🙂