Everybody’s Favorite- Nutrition!

For the record, I have had a life-long struggle with food.  It started when I was in 3rd grade and my parents let me come home from school every day instead of going to my baby-sitter’s house.  This meant that I could eat whatever I wanted until they came home!  Woo hoo!  So what did I eat?  Bologna!  Go ahead.  Judge away.  To this day I can never eat it again.  00857 Bolo OT 00857

This little habit led me to gain a bunch of weight, fast.  To boot, I was growing like a weed and the tallest kid in my class. I wasn’t brought up learning proper nutrition, so I was eating all the wrong foods.  My parents (god bless ’em) were so busy with their careers and 3 children that we ate what was fastest and cheapest.  Lots of processed food, salty snacks, and sugar-filled desserts.  Delicious, but treacherous.  (I don’t blame my parents, btw.  They did the best they could with what they had and it was the 80’s/90’s)

So by the time I was 11 years old I was 150lbs and 5’4″.  I decided it was time to lose weight after someone taunted me with the hold phrase “fatty fatty 2 x 4, can’t get through the living room door”.  I still want to murder that skinny, scrawny little good-for-nothin.  I was able to keep a very tight reign on my diet for several years- until I got into pot in college.  During that time, I also discovered running.  I used to run after school whenever I didn’t have another obligation.  I was never a jock because I was a theatre and band nerd and those took up basically all of my extra-curricular time.

Then I got to college and discovered weed, alcohol, and cheap foods.  None of it was good.  I still tried to take care of myself and would be good for a few months, keeping up with my nutrition and exercise, but then I would back-track to eating ice cream and pizza and drinking a liter of vodka a night.  This went on for about 10 years.  Even after I got sober, I struggled daily with food.  I am a binge-eater to this day, although I have tools now that I never had before- more on that later.

So fast forward to about this time last year.  That ex-boyfriend I told you guys about taught me how to maintain a healthy, balanced diet.  I have been drinking Herbalife shakes since last March.  I have them every morning and most times post-workout.  (If you want more info on that, please comment or something.  Not sure how this blog thing works….)

Here is the ground-breaking news.  He told me to eat every 2-3 hours.  Breakfast, snack, Lunch, snack, Dinner, snack.  This was a glorious revelation.  I LOVE TO EAT!  So now I could do it more than ever!  And the most important thing about this is that the food and meals should be really high in protein, and low in carbohydrates.  I was able to slowly cut out the refined sugars and processed foods and create much healthier options that I could make in bulk to supply me for the week.

Sample day for me was:

Breakfast: Herbalife shake and tea

Snack: Carrots with peanut butter (Trader Joe’s unsalted natural) OR Think Thin bar

Lunch: Chicken breast (3-5 oz) usually mixed in a salad.

Snack: 3 0z Tofu with string cheese

Dinner: 4 oz pork chop with cauliflower puree and green beans

Snack: 1 apple with peanut butter OR no snack

I usually fall off at dinner time.  Dinner is hard for me for a number of reasons.  First, I sometimes do not have my afternoon snack, or I exercise after my snack and don’t properly prepare with a shake and/or handful of nuts to supplement.  The biggest reason I would ever fall short is due to LACK OF PLANNING.  If I am prepared and have a plan I will follow through.  If I try to “wing it”, I will fail.  This is like so many other things in life as well.

Take yesterday, for instance.  I planned really well when I went to work.  I had my usual shake and tea.  Then my think thin bar.  Then I had a pita wrap for lunch because I had forgotten to get chicken so couldn’t have my chicken salad that I was planning.  Afternoon snack was… I don’t think I had one.  Then for dinner I went to Ralph’s to get one of their roasted chickens and I ended up buying Kraft Macaroni and Cheese.  As I put it in my basket I thought to myself “this is for later.  Or maybe I will make it tonight and save the rest for later.”  I secretly knew that if I made this box I would eat the whole goddamn thing.

And so I made the box of mac and cheese, cut up some chicken, and made a salad.  At first I only put about 3/4 of a cup of the mac and cheese on my plate (which is still larger than the recommended serving size).  I ate my dinner and it was delightful.  Not too full, totally satiated.  But then what did I do?  I went back in the kitchen and loaded up the rest of my plate with ALL the remaining mac and cheese. And I ate it.  And I was stuffed.

So what happened?  I KNEW I would do this.  So what can I do in the future?  Not put myself in that risky situation.  Put the damn box back and chose a healthier option.  It is all about choices.  I always have the choice of what to put in my body.  I can let my mind talk me into just about anything, and here is where an accountability partner comes in handy.  Just like in my sobriety program, I need to utilize the tools I have.  Pick up the phone and call a friend.  Call myself out on my bullshit!  It is the easiest and hardest thing to do.

I actually do utilize my Herbalife coach, and she is amazing!  I do 5-day challenges where there are a bunch of us who take pictures of everything we eat, update each other on our water consumption, and workouts.  I am actually going to do another 5-day challenge next week because I am really sucking at my nutrition program lately.

Today I just started learning about macros and will let you all know what I find out and how it works for me!  I have started tracking them in my little journal book, and I hope I can keep up the habit for the next few weeks till race time!  By then it will have become a habit so I will just continue to track without even thinking about it!

Thanks everyone, for coming back and reading my silly words.  I will see you next time when I move on to my OCR sidetrack 🙂

Later Taters!


The Half Marathon Decision

Hello!  Welcome back!  I wanna call you guys “constant reader”, but that’s Stephen King’s thing and I might get in some sort of legal trouble.  Plus this is only my second post so….hey guys!

So. Why, you ask, would you want to run a marathon?  I didn’t start out wanting to run 26.2 miles.  That is insane. Crazy-talk.  I was thinking back at the beginning of 2016, “I just want to try to run a half marathon.”  For some reason, 13.1 miles doesn’t sound nearly as daunting as 26.2, but I had never run more than a 5k before, so what the hell did I know?

I have always been a person who can accomplish 3/4 – 5/8ths of my goals.  I can get most of the way there, but never really achieve it.  I am talking mainly in terms of my exercise/nutrition goals, my weight- basically body image stuff.  So I wanted a hard line. Something that was definite. A real goal, not just a “some day…” goal.  So I started talking to my now ex-boyfriend because I heard that he had run a marathon and knew he was physically active.

I started running with him.  It was the first time I had actually run with another human being for about 10 years.  I was always a “do it in private” kind of person.  I never wanted anyone to see my face get red from exertion.  My fat jiggle around my waist, my slow time.  I never wanted to be vulnerable in that way.  I always had to have my shit together.  But for some reason it was easier to run with him and I didn’t care about all that stuff.  I just cared about getting better and more fit. For some reason, all that selfishness, self-centeredness, and self-pity was slipping away.

I was using the awesome  Couch 2 5k app.  And like I said in my first post, I was able to complete my first “real” 5k around 30 minutes or so.  It was a great feeling of accomplishment, so I decided I would sign up for a 10k.

All the while I was training for this 5k, I was doing circuit training, and this other program that I bought off Hulu.  Daily Burn 365 is seriously one of the most fun ways to get back in shape I have ever tried.  It allowed me to work out “with” other people, without actually having to leave my little apartment!  It was the perfect combo for me.  Different workouts every day, fun instructors, and I got to watch the people working out struggle the same as I was struggling!  Then I slowly crawled out of my apartment and into the sunlight.  I started working out with other people and utilized the Culver City Stairs and a yoga mat to achieve my goals.

How did this help my running? I was building up my core body strength, as well as building up my cardiovascular system.  It only ever added to my running workouts.  At this time I was still running about 3-4 times a week and logging all my runs with the Map My Run app.


I was able to run the 10k, but not without a bit of pain in my training.  My left foot started getting very sore along the outside and I was worried I was getting a stress fracture.  Turns out what I really needed to do was get some insoles because my running shoes were not providing enough support in the right places.  Low and behold, those insoles have saved my bacon many a long run since then!

In my next post I will focus more on nutrition, and how I was able to lose about 20 pounds between the pictures from my last post to this one 🙂

Until then, later taters!


Hi there!  Welcome to my blog!  This is my very first ever blog and I wanted to talk about my experience over the past year+ starting running again and training for the LA Marathon.  I hope you enjoy my posts and learn from my experiences.

First of all, I never, ever thought I would run a marathon.  I was content to do a few miles here and there, but never thought I would or could go more than a 5k.  I completed one back in 2015- The Rock n’ Roll 5k in Downtown LA, but that was just by the skin of my teeth and sheer willpower.  Not to mention I didn’t want to look a fool to my friend who I was running with.  I did very little training to prep for it, and consequently did not do very well, physically or mentally.

About 2 years ago something magical happened to me.  I became sober and my life opened up.  Before then I was trapped in an endless cycle of drinking and smoking weed.  I never thought I could live without them, but low and behold, not only can I not drink or use every day, I can do all the things I never thought I would be able to!  That includes training for this god-forsaken marathon.

So I wanted to start with you from the beginning of my journey and catch you up to date before the marathon, which is a mere 25 days away!  EEEEEP! But I am only dealing with today and that is a relief.

I started running again back in December of 2015 and I wanted to just train for a 5k.  I started using the app Couch 2 5k, which is an amazing tool for all you beginners out there.  It starts you out very slowly:  Warm-up walk 5 mins, jog 60 seconds, walk 90 seconds.  Repeat for about 30 mins and do a 5 minute cool-down.  Super simple.  Then it amps up from there and within about 3 months, you should be able to consistently run for about 30 minutes, which is probably how long it will take you to do a 5k.  Everyone is different, but this tool worked really well for me.

Here is my first photo I can find of my workout and myself from those days:


So I was able to train on and off for about a year, and I finally ran my first “real” 5k in Santa Monica on May 15, 2016.  My time was not great, but I did it!  My boyfriend at the time had signed us up for a 1-monthiversary activity.  Good times!  He had already been running for many months and was way more advanced than me, but he kept by my side and was encouraging the whole time.  I wanted to murder him so I could walk, but I just kept chugging along.  We finished the race (I think around 32 minutes or so?) and got a sweet medal to show we had done something amazing.


So that is basically the beginning of my journey.  I will keep posting, and I hope you all keep reading!  For now, happy trails!